20 years old

Saturday, November 05, 2005

i'm back

haha....i back again lar.....
almost two months time....
Always feel seems many things can happen in a month, a week or even a day...
So no need i mention, this two months sure happened many things on me la....
But wat makes me most happy de...is last nite..
last nite being insomia....late at midnite...wat can i do?
online?being scared of virus lately......
So.....i call somebody....when i take up my phone...
Who should i call?University's friend?one in singapore, one being gathering with others university friend, one oredi sleep, one in genting, one in sabah, one....not so suitable. Secondary's friend?one in australia, one in england, one in taiwan, one oredi sleep, one this time call to her house will scold by her parent...so onli left primary school friend.....(too few of friends can find...so poor....my social skill should be improved!!!!!!!)
Y feel so happy ler?
cos as ppl grow up, v found dat v oredi lost something rite???
d feeling treat towards ppl oredi changes.........
Em..but last nite, i feel dat i found back tat feeling.......there is really a real real real real friend there.d friendship between us haven change...i can feel d sincere, d happy, d pure heart.....
Not mean dat my secondary school friend or university school friend not sincere, not pure...just dat....not so ''original'' feeling.....my english is but...duno how to describe it....
Few days b4, think of dat friend, feel d distance between us veli far.cos oredi months din contact each other....but after last nite, dat feeling had gone.just i lack of ''security feel'', long time din contact den feel dat d distance is veli far.......
It is common rite.....lack of ''security feel''....oways feel dat relationship is not a secure thing. Dat's y i now declare to u guys, i dun dare to start a relationship....
Haha..being fragile oredi.......a fragile "vase" (although i not pretty, but duno wat noun suitable to be put beside fragile..) hope to be protect by something but scare of in d end something will make a deep wound towards d vase.....so better d vase keep herself nicely better den find something to protect her rite????make sense?
But women is ''changible''.....atleast i'm one of them...i duno when i will change my opinion towards dat or meet ppl dat will change my opinion......ppl said women is make from water....
but how about guy?being hurt but dun cry it out,justlet stomach digest it?come on, guy oso fragile rite...just pretend to be not fragile at d outside....i think there r more wu liao den gals lo...atleast gal cry until tired den go to sleep, tomolo wake up nothing at all.guys???haha..duno how guy reheal their wound.but definitely not cry until tired den go to sleep rite?i guess theywill find ''substantial'' reason to comfort themselves shouldn't be sad.....wu liao....
Err..dun wan keep on talkin this...or guys dat r reading will beat me.....
My life now.....full of pretending, pretending, pretending...
I know wat is happening but stil pretend i'm duno.....cos if not pretend duno, wat should i react?
Duno how to settle....duno wat's d best way....just let it past....
Seems like veli corward....but brave must be paid rite??????

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