Study......

i'm soooo sick with my study la.....

last time in high school, my add maths + physic teacher told me tat in uni life veli syok one. He said like just go in uni to enjoy our life, playing around.But d onli condition is ur basic must be gud......However, now i onli noe how naive n stupid i was, i trusted wat his said....He somemore said tat u guys can playin truant and just noe some hardworkin person to get their notes n den straight away go in d exam hall. Mayb ppl nowadays become more selfish den last time la

Haha....now wat i noe is....i work like a dog (a bit rude la, but really feel tat), never playin truant, try as much as the note i can copy (especially teh one), try as concentrate as i can (alan ong and wong), try d best to absord wat lecturer teach (haresh)....i oso duno wat i had learn n wat i'm doin now....especially those reports....i find use a week to find info oso cant get anything, somemore certain teacher said, report onli ma,simply do la.....walau, really wana ask her to demonstrate how simply she can make a report.....sommore next week got 4 reports n 3 tests.....god, wat's life is tat??????aiyor....not funny at all, onli feel suffer suffer n suffer

Duno is my ex's teacher clever or i stupid?or engineering more easy to study?biotech really hard hard hard n hard....sometimes really wana give up de....but if i give up, hu can i depend on?i'm d onli child ler....got lots of responsibility, atleast i wana ''rear'' my parents....Ppl oways say, u r onli child ar, den gud la bla bla bla....walau, hu ever think of d responsibility of an onli child?u think i can just simply find a husband den marry den tat's all ar?i'm d onli one tat have to take care my parents...n myself.....next time got wat problem oso dun have sibling to share about my sadness or my hardship...wat oso onli depend on myself....tat's y i oways feel helpless n depress

But when i'm understress, i rmb wat haresh said (my physiology teacher), those hormon will rise n bla bla bla, our body is not gud n easily get sick.....So, when i understress i will tell myself ''hey u suppose to b happy"',....this phenomenon repeat n repeat....now i oso duno wat's my actual feeling is.....as if sad, as if happy.....N my eq obviously is not high, sometimes i oso duno i'm doin wat

Aiks.....hu gona to help me????except study, still got others problem.....i begin to think 2005 izzit a bad year for me....Grow...NOT FUN AT ALL.

20 years old

em...duno how to start ler.....let me start with y i set this blogspot la...cos a fren called tony, he gives me his blogspot address, n den after i read his article,feel like quite a nice website wo...atleast i got some place to breath, sometimes wana say out something but duno say to hu....

em...this year 20 years old la...cant say young and oso cant say old.Sometimes just thinkin, how a 20 years old gal should act like?20 years old, the year just pass my teenager....obviously cant b last time fung fung thin thin like tat, wana play den play....last time even snaek out until 4am..(onli once la, cos my mum noe it oredi), oways talkin to guy tat i not so suk, just noe thru internet until midnite.....i remember once even talk until dawn...mayb my mum too strict la, this cannot that cannot....so there was a force to tell me to balance up......n end up i do something tat my mum not allow me to do....

But those i mention just now oredi past la.....if i'm in normal state, i wont repeat it again, except tat is something happened on me la.So guys out there, dun try to stimulate me ya, i duno wat will i do de.....